I can’t do it all. I have tried. At the end of each day I am feeling more and more frazzled, more behind, less accomplished. I know that this is temporary. That one day my kids will be
more self sufficient, less needy, dare I less, less whiny?
The only time I feel like I am doing what I am supposed to is when I am just being a mom, just cuddling, just playing. I need to look at the things that are taking away from that time. The
biggest pull away from time with them will always be work. I would love to give that up, but I can’t. Really, I even asked my husband at dinner again – he still says no!
There are things that we do for their education, their community, their health, that while it sometimes takes away from them, I know will give back to them, like serving on the board of Connor’s preschool.
So I have to look at what I can give up that won’t hurt them. Today it is this blog. While it
may be about them, it is more for me. I hope it is just a quick break. I certainly know blogs that are much more inconsistent than mine and still just as meaningful. Maybe a week, a month. I am not sure. Today I need to free up that time and space in my brain that is getting in the way while I look for more things to let go of. Because that is what is important to me, right now, at this moment.